It's been a while, I'm still alive, but close to kill myself now since I've just found out that I bombed my midterm which is fucking open book and NOTES. I have no idea how i bombed it, I studied for that shit, I work hard to perform, I studied couple days before hand and I took notes. What the hell? Do I not belong in speech or what? This sucks so bad that I can just kill myself right now at this moment. I just want to ugh, it's not fun that the teacher has to give me a prep talk about my performance in class and saying that I can do better than I can right now and then telling me that she didn't mean to give out the wrong message. This is terrible, there are only two more speeches left and I have a low B right now. I'm not trying to be confident but I'm sure there are a lot of people who did worse than I did in class, but WHY ME? Do I not deserve to get an A? What the fuck...

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You scored as Yuuko Hey, you are a lot like Yuuko Ichihara from xxxHOLiC! Beautiful, cunning and a bit eccentric, it wouldn’t surprise those closest to you if they found out that you secretly ran the universe from the basement of your house. But that’s more of a side job really, as you are much more interested in good food, good friends and of course, a good bottle of sake! You are a genuinely good, honest person who keeps everyone’s best interests in mind, and everyone close to you knows this, even if you are a bit impish and seemingly unconventional at times. Yuuko 83% Watanuki 79% Chii 79% Hokuto 75% Kurogane 67% Seishirou 58% Sakura 58% Kamui 58% Miyuki-chan 50% Fai 46% Kero-chan 33%

I've been messing up people's lives, sorry, I feel like I'm a bad friend. I make things worse when I'm trying to help. God, why am I so troublesome? I'm retarded, and that's it. I'm an ass hole, bitch and a bastard. I'M SO RETARDED! I'm going to stay out of people's business from now on. I'll just say hi to people and not going to help them, because I'm just gonna make their lives miserable, and messed up. YES I'M A BITCH! More edit: I feel terrible, not a good friend, plus, I'm not a good friend afterall. AUUUUUGGGRRRRHHHHHHH! I'll just leave the lunch group and go help out in the library so you won't have to feel like that I'm pushing you all to do something that you don't want to and not getting involve in you guys' business, and yea, I feel terrible and horrible. Explanation! I'm not trying to push you to the nearest adult. I'm not going to. I was about to, not of your personal personal problems, but the student in your class. You can tell the counselor about the class, and i think she can help simply by talking to the teacher. I'm not going to tell her EVERYTHING about your personal thing, but just the student part, because I know everybody needs privacy. Besides,if I could of done something that helped you, I'd rather have you all hate me and never hang out with me anymore and slap me everytime you see me. I didn't tell ANYBODY about your situation....nevermind, I guess I'm just a fucked friend, oh no, not even a friend, just a trouble making ass hole/moron...

I hate my FREAKING SEAT IN HEALTH! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I HAVE TO SIT THERE FOR 4 FREAKING WEEKS! SALSKAJDLASKJDAKSJFHKDJFNK FNSKDJFNCKFJNSDKJFNSLDJFKN! Man, Breanna's in my group, she's one of the working people my group. James Vega's in my group, and so is what's-his-face --??. I don't even know his name so don't ask. He walked around the room and stealing people's markers and pencils. GOD! I JUST WANT TO PUNCHED HIM RIGHT IN THE FACE! Man, I told him to move next to James so he can share a book, I was about to cuss because he didn't move after I asked him a lot of times. I was like "MOVE! NEXT TO JAMES, SO YOU CAN SHARE THE FREAKING BOOK WITH HIM!" I didn't cuss because Mrs. Walters was there. Somebody called Breanna during class, and she said it was an 800number, what's his face took the phone because Breanna gave it to him. He answered "Hello? Hello? Don't you ever call again little bitch"

I didn't go to pre today, but I'll go tomorrow. My brother didn't go because he didn't get to sleep last night, and he said that I'm not going because I'm not going to walk home alone.

Geometry, Huntoon just left us there, he didn't tell us or anything. He should of told us the day before. The sub was ok, in fact, I don't even know his name. Anyway, we formed a "girl-circle" in the back of the room. Tuyet, Trinh, Tiffany and me, because we were just there.

AVID is cool. I wrote a lot in that class and I improved, from a B paper to an A-. Mr.Amaral told us our letter grade today, and he said mine out loud for some reasons, I don't know why. HA I'M NOT TELLING YOU WHAT GRADE I GOT IN THAT CLASS, TOOO BAD -_-. Breanna told us that the 800 number called her again, and this time she gave the phone to Jordon, he picked up and said "Hello, Domino pizza." He said next time, he'd say something like "Hello? City Hall." Haha, Jordon's funny, He called me an A pluser when I turned around to copy down the homework...

Biology was ok, even though I have a B in that class. We only have 24 more days in that class, not hours but D-A-Y-S. We watched a video about cigarettes. Jose Luna moved to a new seat, ha, he sits next to me now. Michael, the new student of AVID, he sat where Jose used to sit. Ms.Condran said she moved Jose next to me because the guy sat next to me smokes and she said that way I won't have to smell the "2nd" handed smoke. She's kind of cool I think. BUT I NEED TO HAVE AN A IN HER CLASS SOMEHOW!

I felt like dying today. I don't want to walk to school tomorrow. My head feels heavy, my nose is kind of bleeding, I'm coughing, my throat hurts, and I'M FREAKING SNEEZING! This is really annoying...
I talked to my friend on MSN "this morning" at 12:30 A.M. because she's all the way in Macau, China. We've been friends since 5th grade. I think she's my only friend that I still kept in touch since 5th grade. Oh well, I'm going to visit her during the summer anyway.
I'M SICK! I HATE BEING SICK! I want to do the chores, but my body just won't MOVE! I asked my brother nicely to vaccum the house 2 FREAKING HOURS AGO, AND IT'S STILL NOT DONE! I guess I'll do it myself, I have no faith in him. Whenever he goes out, he'll say "Call me when you need me.", PSHHH... this is what I always say "Need you? I'll call 911, it's more dependable than you." I don't trust my brother anymore because what he does. "OH stop acting like you're older than me." THEN WHY DON'T YOU ACT MORE RESPONSIBLE AND OLDER! I wish I was dead, instead sitting there and being sick.

I went to San Jose today, I was SUPPOSE to visit my cousin's girlfriend, but she went to her dad's place. I went to the Korean supermarket, it was cool. I found a BIG box of knives, the kind where people use to cut the grass in the farm. I wonder what happen if those landed on the bad kids' hands. I saw an old guy trying to calm his grandson down, but instead, that little kind climbed up the cart, and the cart fell on him. Too bad, he got hurt, because he didn't listen to his grandpa.

Tomorrow is Monday, which means the RUMOR SPREAD-ER IS BACK! Yes, that means my grandma is back, my "lovely" grandma, I "missed" her! WOW, THAT SOUNDS REALLY FAKE! haha! And, yea, I faked it.

Today, Parque Espania!, rain. Seems kind of dead at school, even thought it should be having SCHOOL SPIRITS. I bet tomorrow, everybody's gonna wear their PJ's since SOME OF THEM are too lazy to get dress.
Gosh, GOSH! Taichi's ALWAYS making a big deal about me giving her food. YES TAICHI, YOU BETTER READ MY LJ BECAUSE I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU! HAHA jk.
I'm going to make a couple of annoucements -- doesn't that sound like teachers at school? haha, ok:
1) Tomorrow is pre-condition for badminton
2) I saved BluAyu some sour coke candies
3) I'm reading "The Da Vinci Code", finally
4) I hope I won't die in the pre-cond...

seems like everybody has a talent. Taichi knows how to draw and play the piano. BluAyu knows how to write like a pro and knows A LOT ABOUT JAPAN. Tapioca_ish is a genius, in computer, academic, and art. Muahahahaha!! Me, I don't know, I'm still looking for it... I hope I find it before I become a sophmore...
Haha, Huntoon was talking about how people in the office can check his computer, he said in a quite confusing way. I was thinking that he was talking about the office hacking his computer. *Snapped* just like that, he could of said the office hacked his computer to check on him, that would be more specific...Oh, what the heck.
My brother was hecka checking this out, and so did my "sister"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5uU5TcBIAIA -- i wonder how can a little kid get into the liquor sotre? and hecka messed up. (this contains a lot of F words and racism)

*Sigh* The math test, finally, has come...by tomorrow :P I'm so stupid that I don't know what to study! I hope I'll do good on that test, or I'll jump out of my window and kill myself. Well, my stupid brother did bring a trophy home, and it was his first one. He told me to come with him next time during spring. So he came home late, like about 12 IN THE MORNING! I woke at 1 A.M. to check if he came home or what because I fell asleep when I was waiting for him...

I'm stressed and I don't know what to do now...I've been thinking about something...Am I really fobbish fob? I'm not trying to make fun of other people, but I think I am one...Well, I hope writing/typing in Live Journal may help me improve on my horrible writing skills. I've been reading A LOT, and I'll keep that up, so I can improve on my terrible english. I need to work on A LOT of things, english, math, biology, and badminton...

I was about to install the photoshop today with the serial number that tapioca_ish gave me but it won't work because it is a 20 digit number instead of 24, I need 24 somehow, I'll just download a new one instead...

Ok, here's my picutre...

Today, I went to this one place to eat Vietnam food with my family. I wasn't pissed until I couldn't find my brother. He didn't answer the phone, I called him like a thousand times already... Finally, he called back, he sounded like rushing or something. By the way, he's always like THAT to me. Only me, when somebody else called, he'll take time to talk to them and stuff, when I call, he'll be like "OK OK OK OK OK, I HAVE TO GO, BYE!" And the conversation lasted 1 minute. He didn't even bother to tell me where he was or, to call me to make sure I know what he was doing. HE DIDN'T. I AM HIS SISTER. I don't know why I have to care about him that much. He is being a jerk today, and I'm pissed. Why can't guys understand how people that are worried sick about them? If you call them too much, they'll think that you ARE ANNOYING! If you care about them too much, they'll think I'M NOT A KID ANYMORE! I'M NOT SAYING THAT YOU ARE A KID, YOU'RE JUST MAKING ME WORRY ABOUT YOU! Why can't they be more responsible? I told him to call me when he get there, HE DIDN'T! I CALLED HIM INSTEAD! Sometimes, I really need people to talk to and share my problems with, or I'll end up being insane and crazy in the dark dark room inside the hospital for crazy people!

I guess I haven't find that person YET! My family, I definitely can't talk to them because they talk too much and gossip too much. It's not like I don't trust my friends,I do trust them. Maybe I should invent a robot, so I can talk to "it" and "it" won't tell anybody...well... I guess I should not talk about it anymore, I'll just hide it inside of my mind, and stay normal....

Today is ok, but I DROPPED MY PHONE RIGHT AFTER MY 4TH BLOCK BIOLOGY!!! Ok, so, this is how the story went. I was walking out of the class with Jashneel as usual, and we were talking and walking as usual. I was take ing my phone out of my back pack, and BAM! IT DROPPED!!!! I felt sooo sorry for my phone because the edge of the phone was kind of busted. After that, my brother's friend walked by and said hi to me, but my phone dropped and I was paying tooo much attention on it, so I didn't say hi to him BACK!!

AHHHH!!!! MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well, let's put this aside. In biology class, we did a lot of notes and video and ANOTHER HOMEWORK PACKET! While I was doing my packet, my "table partner" was goofing off with the girl sitting in front of him. They were laughing out loud as usual, and the other person came and join them with made them laughed louder! That person was making weird niose and stuff, i couldnt concentrate, but I'll still sorta got my packet done and I just have to color it...

I'll show you the picture of my busted phone by tomorrow, when I steal the phone from my brother and take a picture of it and show it to you. Here is the picture I took yesterday on my way to school:



http://s100.photobucket.com/albums/m18/AmNaInMgEa/ --- my photobucket!

Taiyaki taste soooooo gooooooood!!!!! I had four small taiyakies today, they are about the size of a finger. If you like the chinese red bean, you might like it too!

Today is a happy day because I have NO test today, and I had fun in all the classes, but english though, because it is always boring and too much homework. I took some pictures when I was walking to school with my brother today... sun rises above all the houses and behind the trees...

Tomorrow is a sad day because I have a HEALTH TEST TOMORROW! Whether I'm getting an A in that class depends on how well I'll do on the test! My god, I'm stressing myself out. There's a math test next week, and a "maybe" test on biology this week... freshmen year sucks --- not the next term, I can't wait until the next term!!!!!

Today is a happy day because I finally made up my grade in biology!! I got an A!!! School sucks as usual, but not at lunch because I get to see all my friends and stuff. I'm about to sign up for the reading buddy thing in the Hayward Public Library. So I went to the library with my friend since we have biology together and going to the same direction. He said he never went to the library at our school. We went inside and I asked the librarian about the reading buddy program, and she gave me a flyer. After that, we kinda explored the library for a minute, IT WAS HILARIOUS! We went to the Manga section, and suddenly, my friend's phone rang, he was whispering with fear "hellllo?....." IT WAS FUNNY! He sounded like the librarian would kill him because his dad called him! I'm glad that i got him and some other people into badminton, and he kept telling me that he was sooooooo loooooking forward for it. EVERYBODY WHO IS INTERESTED IN BADMINTON, MEETING IS NEXT WEEK OCTOBER 18TH DURING LUNCH IN ROOM K2, IF YOU'RE NOT SURE WHERE TO GO, ASK SOME PEOPLE YOU KNOW THAT ARE JOINING BADMINTON! and this is how my spend my Monday...